Ugly-Beautiful World

I see the beauty in anything
I follow my intuition
And it leads me to exactly
What I'm supposed to see
After, I get over the initial shock
There is a moment
where.i.feel.free

Free to know what really is
Free to validate my fears
Free to make the decisions that I make
Free to with both hands to cover my ears
Free to not listen to what anyone has to say
Free to throw up a bird

I see the ugliness of the world
It's uncovered to me daily
You better watch your back
I walk backwards through life
Carefully placing each step
Because 'you' may be playing with the enemy
Who's always smiling all in your face
While they plan...
Exactly where they're going to plant the knife
When they go for the kill
Which always misses by an inch or two
Because you're always ahead

The thing about enemies
Is that they are always revealed
And if you follow your heart
It will lead you to the truth
I try to balance out
The ugly-beautiful world
By staying true to my goT damn self
And always saying F you
I know what's in my heart
Because don't nobody mean me no good

There is a law of the Universe..Karma
Who doesn't leave me out of the mix
She has kicked my ass before
She's a chick so we are in no way friends
But she's done wonders for me
Because I repent
She's tied in with God
Who said we'll all do wrong
During this walk around
This ugly-beautiful life
That nobody but Jesus was perfect
So people kick the holier than thou act
To the curb
God let's Karma do the dirty work
While he tries to save our souls
And so do I

I won't swing a fist
Or utter a word verbally
But I'll write the shit out of
A bad situation
In the form of what I call a poem
That's how I move on
That's how I find forgiveness
For viewing some F*ed up shit
In this ugly-beautiful world

I have mental images
That will always be stored
Deeply embedded in my psyche
I am just happy
I have deep insight
So even if it's too bright
I can still see
The homeliest beauty
That lies within you and I
In this ugly-beautiful world