A Hot Ghetto Mess..

The lil girl gettin' it would have been me at my daddy's n' nem house lol...I remember many a day when my mom would catch me on the block droppin' it like it was hot. She would yell from our front porch "Get yo fast ass in this house."

If I wasn't shuffle ball steppin' or doing moves that involved jazz hands my mom wasn't having it..especially when I was that young.. Yet, I just wanted to pop and roll like my cousins in the projects..

At black gatherings especially where children are involved there will always be a dance contest. There will always be a winner who will feel like they are the shit cuz "they know how to dance good" and there will always be a loser who will feel so tiny because everyone will know that they can't jig. The loser will spend endless hours in front of a mirror from then on until they become confident that they can possible win a battle..

I was telling my mother that I want my baby girl to be able to dance..formally and I want her to be able to handle herself in these ATL streets. I started taking ballet,jazz,tap, modern when I was a wee one, and didn't stop until I graduated from HS. After seeing this video I don't know if I will be comfortable w/ my lil baby girl tootin' her booty all up in the air, while rollin her hips and ish.. But what can I say..I did it..

What do ya'll think about lil girls droppin it like it's hot?

10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1

I got this from Muze's blog, and she was right this was harder than I expected. It was fun though! I suggest that ya'll do it to..



-10 things that you wish you could say to 10 different people * In no particular order , except my # 1*

Your breath really stinks and I’ve noticed this not just once. It amazes me at how I can be sitting seats away from you and I can still smell it. I think you need to go see a doctor.

I think your lips are sexy. Sometimes I find myself starring at them.

I wish you would stop trying to contact me through various friends of yours. The same friends whose business you told to me. Do you still give play by plays on everyone else’s’ lives? As you can see just like I ignored you, I am ignoring their messages. You were poison in my life. You have been dismissed. And yes, if he doesn’t know I’m still keeping your secret.

I think that you lie on your penis. I don’t believe that chicks give it up to you like you describe.

I wish that you wouldn’t have gotten little like that. I wish that I had a number to call to leave a message about you not answering the phone, and then waking up to a text from you early in the am. You were a good friend and I hope that you are okay. I miss you.

I cannot believe that you do not work and your house is a filthy mess. You know you are wrong for trying to “clean” up that day when I dropped by. That action right there made it more obvious. You should have just said “excuse my junky house.” At least you would be admitting that you had a problem.

I knew along time ago.

I hope you catch something wit’ yo nasty self..

Ya’ll are wrong for naming your children with the Chi prefix. You are name biters. Know that she was the first.

I miss you everyday. I wish that I was strong enough to be there when I was able to. I admit I was afraid of your disease. I was afraid of seeing you like that. Yes, I was a punk. I still vividly remember our last meeting. You bought my chocolate at the airport. You said you couldn’t walk to go get it with me. You knew I loved chocolate, and I thought it was the sweetest gesture. We took pictures. We said goodbye as I walked towards security check. It being a small airport, I was able to stare at you through the glass that separated us at the airport. I was struggling to hold back my tears. I knew it would be the last time that I would see you alive. You waved goodbye and blew me a kiss. My heart ripped apart at that very moment. With you I had the closest relationship to date. You were the first one to touch me. You were the first to wash my hair. If there was anything that I could tell you is that you are my hero. I am so proud of you for making something out of nothing. I praise you for not letting anyone stop you from your dreams. I commend you for leaving your family and graduating from college and attending graduate school. You told me it was hard, but you had to do it for them, for us. Thank you for everything. P.S. I still have the last dress you bought me. And yes, I can still fit it!!


-9 things about yourself

I have a bag/purse fetish.

I always ride in the HOV lane when I am alone if have to drive to or from northern Atlanta.

Every night I sleep in a bra.

When I am nervous I bite my lips.

I experience all-or-none thinking.

Due to this café on my schools campus and the wonderful blueberry muffins I now don’t have a flat stomach. When I put on my jeans now my belly rolls over my pants.

I make the best homemade macaroni and cheese.

I will not censor myself to appease anyone.

My mother only has one child. >>Me

-8 ways to win your heart

Never be obviously trying to hit on me. No pick up lines whatsoever.

Become my friend first.

Accept me as I am.

Make me laugh hysterically.

Surprise me with a purse!

Be book smart and street smart combined. But if you aren’t book smart you really don’t have a chance with me. There is something about intelligence that turns me on.

Don’t be into fashion more than me. This is my number one turn off.

Love my daughter

-7 things that cross your mind often
Is there really a God? Why is Christianity the “right” religion and why are all other religions damned to hell?

How come Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, and JFK *non-evil people* seem to always get shot dead, whereas George W. *evil* never had one shot fired at him. Well I guess the shoe was good enough. It should have connected though.

I wonder what she who tap danced next to my heart is doing at the moment that I am thinking about her.

Food is always crossing my mind. I’m always thinking of the next thing that I am going to eat.

I wonder if and when I will tell “them” about Foia. I wonder if they will question my stability, and if they will respect the place that I stand.

Before Barack got elected I would wonder if a white man would always be the president.

UFO’s??

-6 things you do before you go to sleep

Give baby girl a bath.

Floss and brush my teeth

Take a shower

Read stories to the lil mama in preparation for her to be tucked in.

Write.

Make sure no candles are flickering.

-5 people you couldn’t live without
Mom/Dad- without them how would I live?

The person who addresses me as jones or folk.

Tony- my nail guy

My grandma* although I still breathe.

My daughter

* Disclaimer: I know that without these people life there would be a void. I would be incomplete, but I would live. I would just live with memories and I would long for their presence.

-4 songs that fit your life perfectly

“Someday” Nickleback
“Disturbia” Rihanna
“The One” Cee-lo
“Trouble Sleeping” Corinne Bailey Rae


-3 things you’re wearing right now

A pink tee shirt

Brown leggings

A red bra

-2 things you want to do before you die

Start a non-profit mental health organization that mainly focuses on adolescents and young adults.

Name a star.

-1 confession

I have skipped school to watch “The View.”