So this morning..I called in..said I would be late. I didn't have the mental energy....SEE POST BELOW.
On the way into work I was listening to V103 the Porsha Fox Show..and chile she had Khia..or ever you spell her name..ya'll know the nasty mouth rapper "my neck my back"..Anyway ya'll she got into w/ Porsha...She was getting into it with callers. So Porsha finally cut her mic off..and dismissed her from the show. Wow.
Anyway....
So now I'm in the elementary class room..where I want to be..writing this..and that..The kids are so chilled..so I can chill.. My last one just left as I was in the middle of my last sentence. Peace @ last.
I usually write during the nap time..but I just got a memo..that laptops aren't allowed in the classes anymore. = added depression.
Then my wifi at my house is down. My apt complex has it..but I don't know if they didn't pay the bill or what. But I'm really mad about that because I'm addicted to blogging now. I don't see myself being able to write in a notebook anytime soon.
1. Because I don't like my hand writing
2. Because I like receiving feed back.
3. Typing is just faster, and more in the moment.
So guys..if you are wondering why I haven't been posting..There are the reason's above.
So nonetheless, I feel like shit SEE POST BELOW. I know this shall to will pass, but damnit it sucks when you are in the moment.
I feel as if I'm stuck
Right here
In bad luck
What is the Universe
Trying to teach me?
What...
That it can only get worse?
That I'm no good?
That I'm put here to hurt?
I know if I weather
This cliche'...This storm
I will be a vessel
That will inspire
Others to keep
Living on
Even when it may
Seem as if
There's no way out
Of this hateful world
That makes you lose
Yourself...
And your control...
Foia "F-w-aah"
About Me
- Foia
- I am a Mother, Teacher, Student, Model, Music lover, Eat all the time-r, and never gain any weight-er.. I am a poet, who doesn't follow the rules. I write my heart out literally. I will continue until my heart no longer has a beat. I love to read anything from Cosmo to Silvia Plath to *J. California Cooper*. I'm growing up, I don't want go to the club unless I'm working. *Go Cocktailers* I am a junior in college majoring in Communications/Journalism. I thought was going to teach, but then I realized I don't like to retain useless information.. I asst. teach at a Montessori school where I constantly catch colds. I love the kids though.Wit their bad asses! Back in the day I enjoyed long walks on the beach with my friends, but since I moved from Michigan to Atlanta where there is no beach at. All I can do is reminisce about stomping the sand from my flip flops as I walked into my mothers house. I don’t like math. In fact I loathe it. I was a Montessori child myself, and it made me that way. I am an advocate for mental health. Everyday I fight to break down the stigma. And I will keep going on and on because I love to write.
When I worked @ Motions Xmas time 07'
Check the boots..
9 comments:
I heard Khia on Porsha's show this morning too. Khia was a mess but I'm glad Porsha put her in her place.
I enjoy reading your blog even though I don't usually add comments. Please keep writing when you can.
awwwwh honey, you are right this too shall pass. i understand what you are going through. for some reason i get like this sometimes. matter of fact i was just going through it hard.
that inspired my poetic side for some reason.
keep your head up mama, keep maintaining.
with love
Shanga
I cannot seem to write in my notebook now that I blog either. That's one of the main reasons why I actually started blogging...wanted to get my thoughts out without being in 'edit' mode.
Hopefully they get their wifi bill together so you can give us more of your words=)
And no, I don't think the Universe is trying to tell you that you've been put here to be hurt.
I'm sure all that you are going through or that you have already gone through has made you stonger and better.
Keep hope alive!
Butterfly= thanks hun..glad I can provide enjoyment :) Don't be a stranger..
Dream= Hey you..thanks I know..can't wait..
Jewells=true
lady.
find happiness within yourself first and foremost. that's true happiness. once you find it, then place a mental, emotional, and spiritual wall around you. like you said it's a cold world. filled with pain and apathetic people.
until that moment arrives, weather the storm. like dreamcop stated, 'this too shall pass.'
watch and see.
Hey girl, I have the perfect idea!......
I think you should mentor children or a child, maybe a little girl who is around 9 who has bipolar and use the words of encouragement that you give to her as your own crutch, as you previously stated you know what the problem is with you but how do you deal with it, maybe if you listen to you own words of advice in times of need that will help you out of certain situations.
Just a thought.....what you think?
@ sexxy luv: i think that is a GREAT idea.
who has time to hand write stuff? i feel you on that one...and i like my handwriting...just don't want to do it. times a'wastin'
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