3 Poems..and a note

I just don't understand
How man
Can be about one thing
But really be...on another?
Living life
as a contradiction
Living life
as if they're Jesus
Let them tell it
They've claimed...
To have walked
On water

"You lie"
and so you don't?
"Never have, and I won't"

When you and I
Know that's bullshit
From the smallest thing
To the largest
You and I both
Have been a liar

But still, you fix your lips
To spread hate
It's fine
..........We all sin
But the problem becomes
When a man
Starts to believe
The stories they spin

What those same people
Don't know
Is that they are headed
Straight for hell
Because if they died today
Their spirit would be too heavy
That it couldn't float away
Because they never forgave
They never let go
Of what happened to them
So they'll take it to their grave
I am a sinner
So that's why I pray
To my creator
Who protects me
From all of my haters
Who slander my name..
Daily
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Two Faced
It's an elementary word
But it doesn't stop there
Because we live in
An elementary world

I believe in you
More than you believe
In yourself
Is what I've been told
But then you
IMMEDIATELY
In the same breathe
SMASH
My face in the dirt
Thinking that it
Will hurt
Thinking that
I'm afraid of water
And won't rinse off
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Honestly,
I am happy
I feel whole
In my tattered skin
I will grow
Honestly,
Sometimes it rains
So hard
That I hope
That it thunders
And that
Lighting will strike me
Down
Honestly...

Honestly..
I love him..
Honestly..
I can forgive
But honestly,
I will not compromise
My happiness
For anybody
Who is ne-ga-tive
Who can't see
The beauty
In anything that I give
Who only complains
Without looking at themselves
Honestly....

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Okay...so one of my best friends came in town. I saw him..and boy has he grown into a man. We met at my job @ the mall in MI. My friend...was his sister..but didn't know it..until after we started kickin it.. Well anyway she lives down here now, and is a teacher. So my friend will be coming here more often. We kicked it and talked about old times. I really miss him. Even though we talk on the phone all of the time, that doesn't beat seeing him face to face. He is really a true friend. And I was happy that I got to see him..