After this final last step
I will be free
But after I tell my parents..
My secret..
I am pretty sure
They will speak
And tell it... 2
aunts
uncles
cousins
and family friends
Then the word will spread that
"Something is wrong with that girls head"
In their presence
They will constantly pay attention
For signs..
That I possibly might just be going crazy
Right at that moment..
As I stand before them
Then I will need a tee shirt
Then I could be proud
But my parents won't be
Knowing that they have a "bipolar" child
They would pity me
.......And I would tell them
That it's all their fault
That I'm "crazy"
Somebodys genes aren't right
Or maybe it was just nuture
Whatever the case may be
"Ya'll had something to do with it"
I'm nothing but a product of
My mothers egg
And my daddy's nut
And the two mixed together
Created a daughter
Who happens to have bipolar..
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Yeah so still don't know what to do. I get all nauseous when I think of talking to my mom or dad about this. They most def have a mental illness stigma and they hold it very high. How can I say that I want to break downt he stigma for m.i. when I can't even tell my own parents? I just don't want them being all weird..I also know for a fact that the whole harbor-town will find out..hm? Should I care? I don't think so, but I do..I just don't want people questioning..is she going to flip right now..right here..right here..Don't fret..I got this under control..
Nonetheless, I'm sure this week will be interesting..
Foia "F-w-aah"
About Me
- Foia
- I am a Mother, Teacher, Student, Model, Music lover, Eat all the time-r, and never gain any weight-er.. I am a poet, who doesn't follow the rules. I write my heart out literally. I will continue until my heart no longer has a beat. I love to read anything from Cosmo to Silvia Plath to *J. California Cooper*. I'm growing up, I don't want go to the club unless I'm working. *Go Cocktailers* I am a junior in college majoring in Communications/Journalism. I thought was going to teach, but then I realized I don't like to retain useless information.. I asst. teach at a Montessori school where I constantly catch colds. I love the kids though.Wit their bad asses! Back in the day I enjoyed long walks on the beach with my friends, but since I moved from Michigan to Atlanta where there is no beach at. All I can do is reminisce about stomping the sand from my flip flops as I walked into my mothers house. I don’t like math. In fact I loathe it. I was a Montessori child myself, and it made me that way. I am an advocate for mental health. Everyday I fight to break down the stigma. And I will keep going on and on because I love to write.
When I worked @ Motions Xmas time 07'
Check the boots..
5 comments:
Hey prettygirl..
This is touching, i've been reading a little here and there before this.. But to keep it 500 wit you, Family and freinds are good and bad for what their good and bad for lol- but your team is your team you feel me.. Regardless of a view your team if, if something hits close to home or your circle they supposed to hold you down.. Everybody aint like that. Ya folks might have their issues and views on you, but if they aint supporting u they aint on ya team- not that they dont love you, they just not ready or able to stand on that (which they should cuss its you, youknow).. Just focus onthe one who support you with this to get your emotional state about it right, cuss it'll only bring you down..
Peaznluvgirl, -Q.
I was bout to ask you how you get your 'Customer Remix to work, none of the ones i had ever played (long)- and what you know about that Zoom?
Oh..That is my jam.Go Mr. Richie...I can never get tired of old school music.. I don't know..but customer..that is my junk too..
And I know all about you know "The team" and I think..so far my circle of associates and few friends are pretty cool. I don't get treated different. But I already know my mom has a pity party for everyone but herself. I love her, but I just don't know right now anymore. I forgive her. I do, but I'm not ready to talk about this with her. She should have let me tell her on my own time. Oh well..she cheated. And now she is suspended from my team..pending reinstatement..
I'm about to add you to the roll..
Sometimes I wish I had bipolar depression rather than unipolar depression... a lot of artists and writers do their best work when they're manic.
Well I need to dive down into a mental state..because i'm not doing all that great of work right now :(
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