And another one...

http://www.breitbart.tv/?p=93373 Radio interview and http://www.breitbart.tv/?p=93283 Video. MY LINKS DON'T WORK..SO PLEASE COPY AND PASTE..I was surfing the net and came upon a radio interview from V103 Atlanta. It was the Ryan Cameron Show, and the sister and baby’s father of a woman who is bipolar were talking with Ryan about an incident involving the woman on the Marta train in the “A”. She has on a red A hat, and a half shirt cussing out an old lady. She is shouting out to Jezzy and even trying to free style. She does the “soljah girl dance.” She accuses a boy on the train that she says is from Glenwood shawty of raping her. She starts screaming and approaches the guy. Everyone on the bus is telling him it’s not worth it, because he wants to knock her out. He stands up anyway as she proceeds to yell, and smacks her in the head…her hat falls off. She freaks out, and wants her hat so she can go. The video is over 3 minutes long. It was heart wrenching. Her family was telling Ryan that she isn’t on her meds and that she is not like that. The mother of the woman called the police, and the woman was detained. She is now in jail, which is not the place she should be.

Anyway, people don’t think that mood episodes are real. Or that maybe someone is faking it. If you see that video, it is real. I wish I could reach out to her. But I’ve learned something out in the world of bipolar, and meeting other bipolar people..some of “us” are just so far gone, that sometimes there isn’t the ability or desire to enjoy human interaction. Meaning some of “us” not including me, can’t form relationships, or suck at them. Bipolar can be so bad that one loses the ability to be able to care for ones self.


I met this girl when we were both “sick”. She was black, and beautiful. Everyone who had to be “stuck” together for 72 hrs happened to be young adults. Anyway, I always observe my surroundings so I can write about it later, so I noticed that black beauty was starring off into space all of the time. I was thinking to myself “I’m glad I’m not on what she is on”. Thank my spiritual being aka God, for blessing me with a doctor who actually knows what she is doing. And thank God that I don’t really have any serious side effects. Anyway..after about a day I talked to her. I found out her name was Allison and she was 22. She lived with her parents, and didn’t drive. She never had a kiss, and she had never been on a date!! I was thinking *makeover*!! But no… her hair was cut, and I thought it was cute. I later found out that she shaved it all off in a fit of rage. I hope I never get that moody because I love my hair. Anyway..as I talked to her more and more I realized we were two different parallels. I tried to make a connection anyway. I gave her my number, and wrote her this inspirational note when I got out before her. *she was in before me* I even called to check on her when I got free and they said she wasn’t doing well. So of course I never heard from her again. I hope she is okay though..

I don’t know..Everyday I gain strength with this “disease”. I have always believed the crazy people are the ones who don’t take care of themselves. I do everything in my power to make sure I am good. I have had times where I wasn’t medicated after I figured out why I was so depressed all of the time, that I had mood episodes. Now that I am medicated I can actually say it helps. Unmedicated me would have laughed at that statement. People that know me through my past lover will probably see this some kinda way. Then my mom and my whole world one day will be privy to this information. Each day I am tiptoeing closer and closer to being okay with that. So I tell myself.

Tonight the girl in the A hat who they call soljah girl is in my prayers. I pray that she takes her meds, and I pray that she gets better. Because it is possible, just because you have this situation doesn’t have to hinder you. I know it won’t bring me down, it can only make me *cliché* make me stronger….