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So...I partied like a damn rock star Thursday night, and Friday night... Tonight it is time to sit it down and do what I love most..write



Thursday- Blue Flame..In the heart of Bankhead... Straight hood.. But there was some beautiful women in there.. I wanted to see if I had game..and I do..I got some digits... ain't gonna use em..but it was just an experiment..I got game..lol



Friday- I went to Spondivitz..They burnt the crap out of my coconut shrimp..I wasn't impressed. I didn't send it back..didn't want them to do anything to my food. Then I went to yet another strip club w/ my indian friends.*Just giving you a description of who I was rolling with* Yet again..I had to see if my game was really tight..Yes it was..I macked this white girl called Shaquita..lol..what a stage name.... My boys told her it was my bday..and she grabbed my legs and wrapped them around her..You should have seen the guys faces around me..The thoughts that probably went through their heads.. My friend boys actually got mad..and treated me funny at Waffle House. I told them I wouldn't entertain their bullshit and told my boy to walk me to my car.

Anyway..like I said seeing if I could pick up strippers it was just an experiment...

But to this day..I haven't done the procedures. But I have a hypothesis...



Boy..I haven't gotten that tipsy since I was partying in HS w/ my bff *K*. I woke up Friday morning w/ a damn head ache cuz I drank red wine and patron..the two obviously don't mix.



Then this morning..I threw up.. I hate hangovers..



This afternoon I went to see the new Batman movie..It was pretty good..Even though I was lost a lil bit, cuz I really didn't know anything about Mr. bat himself... But Heath Ledger *sp* was awesome. I couldn't even tell that he was the Joker. He looked nothing like himself.... check it out if you haven't.. I wonder if his daughter will ever be comfortable watching that movie when she grows up? RIP Heath..and Bernie Mac...He was a chocolate handsome older man..He will be greatly missed.

Yes..I made it to 24....I want 70+ more...

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Here is a story

A lil bit about me

I am deep

Deeper than any

Ocean or Sea

A great mind

Sometimes has trouble

But the deciding factor

Is if that beautiful mind cracks

Forever...



I have been paranoid

About loosing my life

Ever since I was 16

And several of my friends

Were killed

Death intrigued me

Because I thought

I would be next

So why not

Prepare for it?



Some died in car accidents

While traveling on

Eau Claire roads

Leaving behind their body

And escaping with their souls

I experience suicide

Someone I was really close to

His sister and I

Were snowflake and mocha

Inseparable

..........We kicked it hard

But I knew him first

And it hurt my heart

Today he leaves behind

Once, his beautiful blond girl friend *doesn't blonde have an e?*

And his child

We were in high school

My junior year

I cheered @ his last game

against Berrien Springs

I will never forget it

Jennifer came and told me

@ work..

I was 16...

That he blew his head off

........With a shot gun

Which completely shattered me

Because he had the guts

To do that to "us"

The audacity

For him to leave

Behind his child



And knew I was next..

Death stalked me

I just figured

I would be the

Next target..

I sank deeper into depression

Because everything I saw

Was grey

I was just waiting

For mr. death

To come find me

and steal me away



I thought about dying

Each

And

Every

Day



And ideation

I need to get rid of

I'm getting closer

To a better place

I think that now

I am okay

With death waiting

For me

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My name alone

Attracts drama into my life

I was named after a soap opera character

One of the baddest bitches I hear

On tv in the 80's...

I bet you can't guess..

If you don't already know.... :)

It's funny though

I sit back and laugh

At the stories

I will be able

To tell

Some about heaven

Some about hell

But in the end

It's all worth it

Because I was

Born into this world...

For a reason..

And I'm still alive

So I haven't achieved it

I am well rounded

Drop Dead Gorgeous

Vain.. only if you make me

I will flip my hair

In a minute

On stupid ass bitches

The one who have that gene

I always talk about

That I don't posses

Cuz I'm down to earth

And I love that

The most

About myself..

But that doesn't

Scare drama

It follows me

Everywhere..

Like it's trying to be

My best friend

I don't like to start it

It's always others

Causing harm

But when I find myself

In the mist of it all..

I think about falling

But look at me

Ya girl or not

Is still standing

And not writing

For only me anymore

I write for ya'll...

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I got fans

Is what my boy Snook

Used to say

He met me at the mall

On the way to my job

Back in Kalamazoo days

He wanted to "talk" to me

But I made him my boy

And we kicked it hard

Until I left Michigan

But he made me aware

That damnit

I am a star

So thank you

To all of my fans

The ones who stop by

And I do not know

You are a fan

Because you just stare

To afraid maybe

To show your face

But I won't bite

Actually I'm quite nice

But I just wanted

To take this time out

To say hello...

To those of you

I do not know....