Friday, May 23, 2008

Reaching out to her

It is going to take a lot of work to help make the stigma of the mentally ill get better. I mean we are looked at as loose cannons waiting to explode. And sometimes our own family has intentions maybe of supporting us, but turn around and treat us the same way society does. If you saw me out on the street, you would have no idea that I have bipolar. Like I’ve said before, I don’t experience psychosis. Mainly just episodes that go from depression/ to mania where I may sleep too much, or not at all, and I also get really hyper. The only thing about that is that most of my cycles are rapid. Where one minute I’m happy, and the next I’m sad. But like I said if I didn’t tell you..you wouldn’t know. Because I keep everything inside.
I was just tipped off by some anonymous person that said they may know where to find Nafiza *the girl in the video*. I hope that they can help me so I can at least talk to her. I am going to take your advice Don and write her a letter, but I really want to meet with her in person. When my creator puts something on my heart, I can’t rest until I act on it.
I know Nafiza probably think the world hates her. She is a celebrity in her own rite now. Everyone knows about her, and most laugh at her story. I don’t see shyt funny because that could have been me. I know I hate taking my meds. I have to suck it up everyday and just swallow them. I think I’ve started and stopped my meds more than 10 times. Finally, I’ve been on them for a while, and boy do I feel much better. I’m off of the emotional rollercoaster, and I would love to help Nafiza get off of hers. Time is relevant, either it will happen or it won’t. But I hope it does..sooner than later.

1 comment:

Suzanne said...

I myself do not suffer from being bi-polar, but my besty (best friend) and grandma both
suffer(ed) from this horrible illness. It has been something that has opened up my eyes to an "unseen" illness . . . and I am so glad to hear that you are taking your meds. I've been through the rollercoaster with my besty . . . a couple of suicide attempts, her leaving her husband and kids to move to Portland, and various other things. But I've stayed because she is one of the most beautiful people that i know. She is smart, funny, passionate, truthful and just an amazing person. She is finally taking "control" of it and working hard to be stable and I thank God everyday, because I need her in my life, my life would not be the same with out her.

Thanks for listening . . . I wish you peace.